I know what my problem is - I haven't been reading the bible consistently. Whenever I feel myself pulling away from God, I should just stop and ask myself, "Have you been praying", "Have you been reading". So today is my start back day. I am going to start back reading the bible everyday (and praying too). I know what happens - I start reading - then I get to a point where I don't know what to read - so I just don't. Then if I am not reading - of course I don't pray. So if I am not reading or praying I am not thinking about God. So what do I think about? Guys. I don't know why I think about guys. There aren't any (for me) down here. Well at least I haven't met any. Yet and still - they seem to get me in trouble.
Speaking of guys, this lady from my job is trying to set me up with her godson. Me, get setup? I don't know about that. Maybe it is because of my ego. I like to believe any guy (under the right circumstances) would like me. So, before I decide who I am going to like - I see if the guy likes me first. That way if a guy doesn't like me - I could just say, well, I didn't like him anyway. Or he already likes someone else. If I get setup - my process is all messed up. We have to see if we like each other... at the same time. What if the guy says - she is too skinny. First of all I am NOT skinny - I am 5'7 and a half and 145 pounds. I wear a size 9/10 for goodness sakes. Skinny girls wear a 5 and below. But that is beside the point - in some people's eyes - especially the eyes of people at work - I am skinny. - No question about it. According to them, I am also going to get fat in about 10 years (with the way I eat). I must admit - I do eat pretty good for a girl. My 6'6 brother came here to visit me and to see the Ricky Smiley show the other week and I made some chicken wings. I think I ate about twice the amount of wings he ate. I couldn't help it. I love fried chicken wings - especially the little drummets. But I work out. Well, that is what I tell people at work. If you call running for about 10 minutes, doing about 60 crunches, and doing a couple of arm curls about once every couple of weeks - working out... I know, I know, I am going to get with the program. But I get so bored in there. I need a workout buddy - or one of those ipods. But they cost like 100 bucks. With the way I am spending money lately - it wouldn't be out of character to buy it. I LOVE to shop. Especially for things for the house.
But I am going to do better - starting with praying and reading my bible everyday. Emphasis on every. I am also going to stop spending so much money - I am going to make a budget and stick to it. It is hard to budget when you use credit cards for everything. Ok, I know what you are thinking Credit Cards for everything! She must be in crazy debt. But I am not. I usually pay them off when the bills come. I don't know about this month. It may take 2 months to pay it off. My interest rate is only 2.9% so it will be okay.
I am also going to stop eating junk foods. It is just that they work me so hard at school - I don't have time to eat. So I have to eat fast food more than I would like. I don't even like fast food - I would much rather cook. I don't like to eat at restaurants either - except for Papadeux's. This is my favorite restaurant. Apparently, everyone else's too. Every time I go there is at least an hour's wait. I don't care. I will wait. It is just that good.
I am going to workout at least 3 times a week, too. And I mean really workout. I will be in the gym for at least an hour on Tuesdays, Fridays, and Saturdays. And if I miss a day - I will go on another day.