Ok, today is the second day into my start-back day; and it is going pretty well - I guess. I am so tired of messing up EVERYDAY! I mean, what is my problem? Can't I just go just one week sin-free? It is not like I am a new Christian or anything. I have been saved since I was two. You would think that a 'mature' Christian could go two whole days without messing up - or at least not messing up in the same area. *sigh*
Fortunately, I did study today. I was feeling pretty discouraged this morning. I was trying to read Galatians - but my mind kept wondering off. I was reading it because my uncle told me to when I was trying to find something in the bible that says that Christians are not obligated to follow the letter of the Law.
Ok, I will start from the top. There is this guy at my job who is Jewish- and saved, i.e. a Messianic Jew. Let's call him JC (for Jewish Christian). For those of you who do not know what a Messianic Jew is: a Messianic Jew is a person that is from Jacob's line and believes in Jesus (a.k.a. Yeshua).
So, JC and I were having a discussion on Friday about whether or not Christians are supposed to follow the Law. Now, something in me KNEW this had to be wrong. First of all, I was always taught the opposite. Second of all, there are like a ton of Laws in the Old Testament - I sin enough as it is if this is added to the list - I am going straight to Hell. [No, I am only kidding I know that as long as I accept Jesus as my Lord and Savior, I won't go to hell.] However neither of these reason are enough to disregard his statements. I had to go find proof (that I am right or wrong).
So, what did I do? I called my uncle. My uncle (as far as I am concerned) is a human concordance. Whenever (well, most of the time) I have a question about something - he has already studied it before and can point me to the place in scripture where it is talked about. However, like a concordance, he rarely EVER gives me a straight answer; he only gives me the scripture to read. This can be frustrating at times, but I know it is good for me...
Anyway, my uncle pointed me to two scriptures in Galatians: Gal 2:11-15 and Gal 3:24-25. This is what started my reading in Galatians this morning. However, while I was reading it, my mind was wondering - and I felt guilty about not being able to pay attention. I mean, if you think about it - this is the only thing on earth that God requires every single one of His children to read and study- that gives us direct insight into His will - and I am not even interested?!? WHAT is
So when I got to work, I was ready to show JC my new found knowledge. When I showed him the first one: Gal 2:11-15, he said that Cephas (or Peter) never really ate with the Gentiles - then he said that the Gentiles that were Christians ate kosher. I couldn't argue with him [even though he used two arguements that contradicted each other] because it does not say explicitly that Cephas at pig feet and crab legs. We only spent about 5 minutes on those verses.
Then I directed him to .
Then he directed me to Romans 3:31. Romans in the New American Standard says: 'Do we then nullify the Law through faith? May it never be! On the contrary, we establish the Law.' So we looked up establish and it means to: abide, appoint, bring, continue, covenant, establish, hold up, lay, present, set (up), stanch, stand (by, forth, still, up). And I was stumped for a minute. But instead of being hard-nosed in my approach (which is what I usually am) - I tried to understand what he was saying, why he was saying it - and why it is wrong (if it is even wrong). Keep in mind - HAVING to follow the Law is the last thing I want to believe. So keeping an open mind was pretty difficult - but it was worth it in the end.
So, although JC didn't agree with me, I felt good in actually coming to a deeper understanding. Now if all of my personal bible studies were like that...