Friday, November 11, 2011
Baby Blues Part 2
I am living my dream life, really... Taking care of my kids who are so funny and beautiful, making stuff I love and patterns, too. Cooking whatever I feel like whenever I feel like it - making my own schedule. I should happy - really, really happy.
So, I just ignore him and let my anger simmer - and craft to get away from it all. I think, if I can finish up this pattern and make a few more things- maybe I will be happy again. And I am - but only a little and for a short period of time.
Then I try to increase my production - to increase my happiness. But with two small ones, there is only so much time I have. And when I can't do it all, I get short with my son. And I feel guilty - like I am a horrible mother. Which makes me feel even worse.
Ugh. I will be so glad when these baby blues go away!