Fine!

Ok so I am an idiot. I’ve never admitted this before. Maybe because of my ego. Whatever the case, I know it now. I am working on this C++ project at work and I don’t know what the heck is going on. I did take a problem solving class (that taught a small amount of C++ syntax) in undergrad. It looks like a foreign language to me now.

For a few weeks now, I’ve been telling myself: “It’s okay, I haven’t had much experience in it” or “If I could just take a good C++ class, I would have a better understanding” or “The real reason I am not getting it is because I don’t have any interest in it.” While all these are true, I still need to admit the fact that I am really not as smart as I originally thought.

This revelation is a huge blow to my ego. I honestly thought I could figure out anything if given the chance. I was wrong. Very,very wrong. And now everyone is going to know it if I don’t figure something out soon.

Pray for me.