I definately care about what other people think. I know, I know “You shouldn’t care about what other people think. The only opinion that matters is God’s”. I give this advice, regularly. But the fact of the matter is: I care. Maybe, I have not had to deal with this fact because generally other people ‘approve’ of me and my actions – or at least as far as I can tell.
However, Saturday my lab partner (LP) called me a slacker – not in so many words – but a slacker, nonetheless. My feelings were badly hurt. Ok, I have been called many things – but slacker has NEVER been one of them. Maybe that is why my feelings were crushed. Or maybe I felt so bad about it because I knew I have not been trying my best.
It is true. He has been doing all the work. But it is not because I don’t want to contribute. It is because he does all the work. I know what you are thinking: that is circular logic. But, seriously, LP is a master: a perfectionist and a genius. He has been working in the engineering field for more than 20 years. No wonder (almost) everything I contribute is changed - for the better, of course. Our teachers ask HIM application questions. His coworkers refer to him as: ‘one of their top designers’ But he never got an engineering degree, so now his job is paying for him to attend school part time.
So, we meet every Saturday morning (at 7am), to work on the write up for the previous lab and the prelab for the future lab. However, these past few labs – he finished the prelab before I even got there. He has also done most of the writing for the lab write-up. His job gives him the convenience of using the full version of software at work or at home. So he is able to build the circuit in Pspice and generate the output graphs.
Correct me if I am wrong, but I thought that the purpose of having a lab partner is to work on the lab - together. However, every week, he does a significant portion on his own – then calls me a slacker for not doing the same.
I hate when people make excuses, but here I go: first of all, the lab is extremely hard. Second of all – it takes like 14 hours. I cannot see myself independently taking 14 hours out of my week to stress out on a lab that LP and I aren't going to use? - just so that I can say: We each did the same amount of work. No.
Now I don’t think that any one person should do all the work either. I think that we should divide they work and share the load. But LP thinks that by doing the entire thing by ourselves – we will get a better understanding, individually. Maybe, but I simply don’t have the time – nor motivation for that matter. I would have the motivation if it wasn't going to get done, unless I did it. But this is not the case. Not only will it get done - we will get a 100% on it.
So why do I feel bad because of what LP thinks of me? One thing: I always think of him as the type of guy I will be working with/for in the real world. If he thinks I am a slacker – there is a good chance others will later. When I go off to work –I want to be considered one of the company's top employee. I want to know everything there is to know. I want to complete all of my assignments early. But if I am a slacker…
That would really suck. I know that this experience is not deterministic of my future work experiences, but I would hate to ever be in this situation, again. My feelings are easily hurt.
In conclusion, I have learned from this experience to always try my best – even when it seems unnecessary.