Crochetting is my Anti-Drug....

My favorite thing to do is crochet while I am watching CSI or Law and Order. A LOT of people on my Christmas list got hand-made gifts last year. I made my brother a hat for his birthday. He claims that he doesn't wear it because it doesn't fit over his afro *whatever*. I took it back. I would've made E a whole bunch of stuff - but he doesn't want any - he says that it looks femine. Mmmhm! I made a Krazy friend a scarf for her birthday. She better like it! I am afraid that I may become someone's aunt emma that makes stuff no one wants. :( Oh well - they better be glad they got something!

Tutoring some more....

Is it even considered community service if I tutor some kids whose folks can afford a proffesional tutor? Maybe I should tutor at a shelter or something...

So this other lady at work heard about my tutoring skillz and she wants me to tutor her daughter in Algebra... she was like "I told my daughter: I am going to have Ayana come by the house to help you". So, apparently she expects me to drive over to her place, also. OK, I am NOT doing that. Well, I really, really don't want to do that. She lives about 5 times as far as the other kid. I mean considering the other kid only lives about 4 miles away from me - I guess it is not THAT bad....

I think I am going to try to get them both to come to my place. That would be a LOT easier for me - but really inconvenient for them...

Unless of course I get another job. I applied to work at Linens N' things today. Did you know that they get a 25% discount? That would be so great. I really need the stuff they got - like a breadmaker, juicer, fondue fountain...I can stay in that store for hours. They even have 1000 count sheets! Unbelieveable! Imagine how soft those sheets are. And I would get a 25% discount! Woohoo!

Tutoring...

So, since I am out of school, I started feeling like I should do some kind of community service. I was considering the Big Brother Big Sister program - like my cousin, but I tried that before and it did not work out too well. My ‘little’ thought I wanted her to act like a “white” girl because I insisted that she not refer to street as skreet, strawberry as skrawberry, and so on…. Also, I tried to get her to not suck her thumb (she’s 10 years old!). Although that was hard to do because her mother believed it was ok and her older sister (who was 14) and older brother (who was 18!) sucked their thumbs. What could I say?

So, I asked around to see if anyone knew someone who needed some math tutoring. That is a service that would be appreciated right?

There is this really sweet lady at my job that told me about her grandson that needs some help in his math. And of course I agreed and told her not to pay me (this is community service). She and I decided that I should meet with him once a week. We decided that it should be on Saturdays at 10am.

Well, before the holidays, I would go every Saturday. The first time I went – I was really nice, but it took forever to get anything done. He acted like I was his friend, so he kept losing focus. So, the next time I went – I had to be more stern – so he wouldn’t treat me like his friend, you know? He did not like that. He would complain about the smallest thing.

The next time that I went he was out of control. I threatened to leave and his grandma and father came and yelled at him. Then he started crying – saying something about he thought that math was supposed to be fun – and they make it not fun by looking over his shoulder. I think he was trying to play me.

The next time, I was all business-like. When he complained – I ignored him. He didn’t bring his books home claiming that he didn’t have homework and didn’t know he was getting tutored. I gently reminded him that I come every Saturday.

The last time I went, he wasn’t even there. He went to his mom’s house claiming that he didn’t know I was coming. Can you believe that?? I get up early on a Saturday morning – every Saturday morning when I so don’t feel like getting up, but I’m like – I am doing a good deed, you know?- drive over to HIS house and ISN’T EVEN THERE!!

I was actually relieved, because I didn’t feel like dealing with all the drama. But then I got pissed! What am I doing? I am not going to be begging people to tutor them! So, I was thinking I am never coming back I have so much other stuff I could be doing.

Well, the sweet lady asked me today when I was going to help her grandson again. *rolls eyes* I do NOT want to go back there. But what do I do? I don’t want to tell her no. But, seriously, what do they take me for? Some kind of punk? I must be. I don’t know how to tell her no….

So I did quit.

I ate pita bread and hummus. Right after I ate it, I got eater's remorse. I can kinda see how people can be bulimic. You can eat anything you want and suffer no calories! Well, there are two reasons I wouldn't do THAT. For one: I hate throwing up - it is the grosses thing - for another: well, I don't want to die. But maybe I do have an eating disorder...

I think I am going to quit

I talked to my aunt today (a health nut) and she advised me against the cleanse. She claims it is going to mess up my body - taking laxatives like that with out eating. I did notice the box said something about not taking the laxatives more than 8-10 days in a row.

Also, I feel bad for E. I am not cooking and I think he ate cereal for dinner tonight. (I am not sure because I have been staying away from the kitchen.) Another thing - I have been in such a bad mood, I haven't been talking to him.

There are a few things that are keeping me from quitting.
1.) I don't want to feel like a quitter.
2.)Plenty of people have done this diet safely. Google it. There are mostly good reviews.
3.) I am actually more focused at work than I have ever been. - Maybe because there was a break through on the project, but it could be the juice!
4.) It's less of a hassle for me to drink lemonade than to try to figure out what I want to eat (and it's cheaper!).
5.)After doing this, I will be able to adjust my diet to eating only really healthy foods.


Here are the bad things:
1.) I am hungry = I am in a bad mood.
2.) There are some health risks .
3.) I am not cooking like I should be (which was one of my New Year's Resolutions).
4.) If I do finish the fast and change my eating, it will be SUCH a hassle to eat. It is already hard to not eat beef and pork when we go out- it's in everything. Imagine trying to eat out if I only eat stuff like organic sea salt and unbleached wheat flour.

Day two

So, more than a few of my friends expressed concerns about my new diet. That is because when you guys last saw me and I WAS fine. Okay. I admit I am not really a fat slob. I am exaggerating...a little. But seriously, this diet is to clean you out. Even the skinniest vegetarians do this diet twice a year.


Last night was good and bad. When we got off work I was in a terrible mood. I am very moody when I am hungry. Poor, E. He just wanted to chit-chat about his day and I kept shooting him dirty looks. I did NOT want to hear it. But then we decided to go running. The run took away my urge to eat. I was in a much better mood...for about 2 hours. Then I was really hungry. I decided to just go to bed. I started dreaming about broccoli and rice with seasoning salt. LOL.

I got some of the laxative tea last night, also. It actually tastes pretty good, but it had me up at 3:30am. That definately sux!

When I woke up this morning, I wasn't hungry. I just took my salt water. I wanted to take it at home, but I couldn't wake up in time. So I just took it at work. Sorry co-workers :(.

NOTE: Sorry for posting my daily monotonous happenings (those are the worst blogs to read). But, If I didn't do this, my chances of surviving this fast are pretty slim. Besides, it may encourage others to do it!

Day one

So last night, according to the fast, I was supposed to take the laxative tea. However, Sevenanda sold out of it. The sales girl said that a lot of people come in looking for that tea and get mad because it is sold out. I guess everyone in Atlanta is doing the diet.

So I didn't take the tea, but I did take before pictures. I am so disappointed in myself. I had a feeling I was getting chunky, but I had no idea I look like a fat slob! (I wear clothes that mask it - LOL).

So this morning, I drank the salt water. Yuck-eee. So gross. I wanted to puke. But I just drank slow and paused when I got the urge to hurl. Finally, I got it all down. The book says that you should have to go to the bathroom (the salt water is a laxative) in about an hour. It only took me 20 minutes. It was worse than diarrhea. Needless to say, I got to work a little late.

I have been drinking the tea this morning and it actually tastes pretty good. I haven't been craving food yet, but when the leftovers run out and I have to cook for E, we will see what happens. But so far, so good!

The Master Cleanse

I am so excited. I am about to be skin-ny. I am going to go on the lemonade diet. I know you are not supposed to go on the diet to lose weight – but it is a great side-effect. Ha Ha. I will take before and after shots - but will only post them if I actually make it. We'll see!